My Mom and I have always been close. Along with sharing a similar laugh, emotional tendencies (I’m already tearing up) and love for shopping – we’ve always shared a very special connection.

So many of my early memories involve us driving to dance classes, traveling to competitions and sharing all of the wins and losses, together. It was her unwavering presence in my life, from a very early age, that solidified her belief in me.

My solo move to Toronto was very tough on me, especially as my struggle with food escalated. I intentionally isolated myself, only sharing my worries and anxieties with my Mom through emotionally driven emails, daily.

Yes, daily. I often joke that we should compile all those emails, bind them and send them to Dr. Phil and say “parent THAT!”.

I recognized my parents had invested so much in me and my dancing career, success (no matter what the cost) felt like my only option. After one particularly scary episode, my Mom flew, without hesitation, to Toronto to be with me.

When she arrived, I was so sick, so exhausted and so lonely – I’ll never, ever forget the comfort that came from her embrace.

Through talking about my triggers and the role that dancing was playing in my struggle, my Mom gave me one the greatest gifts we may be blessed with in life – the experience of unconditional love. She said to me,

We only want you to be happy Claire. That’s it.

Honestly, I was confused (not totally knowing what happy meant, yet), but enormously relieved; knowing that love would always remain.

Because even if the whole world was throwing rocks at you, if you had your mother at your back, you know you’d be okay. Some deep-rooted part of you would know you were loved. That you deserved to be loved. – Jojo Moyes

The clarity that can come from asking if what you’re doing is actually making you happy – is an important one. So, let this be catalyst to ask! Take the time to sit quietly with yourself and ask these important questions. In case you forgot, you were born worthy of happiness.

Surround yourself with people who care for you and want to see you at your best – whatever that may be. Be present for those you love and remind them just how much they mean to you.

Thank you to my dearly loved Mom – for reading my emails, always (and I mean always) being there for me and inspiring me to be the best (happiest) version of myself.

Here’s to love, xo

claire-rhn-2

 

 

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