Well, that’s not entirely true. I’m all about filling our bodies with real, whole foods and indulging in nourishing sweet treats. But when I dig deep about why I got into this profession, and if I’m completely honest with myself, it’s not about food.

And you know what? It’s actually never been about food.

The force that propels me into this field is in fact about helping people know that they are not alone in their food (and body) struggle.

I feel that driving force to my core and yes, I’m jazzed about getting to get people to eat more greens and pack smart snacks.

But if all I do is provide space for you to share your struggle and for you to know that you don’t have to figure it all out on your own, I can literally feel my soul singing. (No joke, it’s singing “You’ve got the love” right now.)

You see, we’re hard-wired for connection, my girl Brene Brown explains. And it’s that connection that is the birthplace for your best-self. Maybe you don’t even know what that feels like right now and that’s perfectly okay.

When you allow yourself to be seen by someone who can hold your struggle (you’re lookin’ at her), the ability and desire to want to nourish your body becomes possible again.

I know this to be true, because I’ve lived it.

The body and mind that I inhabit today, is one that is very different than my pre-teens, adolescence, early 20’s and mid even 20’s. Along with my “looks” (think bleach blonde hair, pixie cuts and wait for it… dreadlocks), my weight and self-worth have fluctuated dramatically.

I spent many years trying to separate myself from the vessel that was carrying me around. I flip flopped from extreme restriction (fake diet food and lean cuisine’s), to eating whatever I could get my hands on (bulk chocolate almonds and I go way back).

There was no middle ground. I lost all grasp of what “normal eating” meant; and that’s really not a fun topic to bring up with your girlfriends over coffee. (It’s actually pretty awkward if you’ve ever tried.)

I felt completely alone, ashamed and exhausted.

Do you know how tiring it is to think about food all-the-time? My thoughts were occupied either by guilt about what I had eaten, or worry from what was coming next. This was my life – all day, every day. 

So I isolated myself from people who seemed to have this “normal eating” thing all figured out, because they made me feel less-than. Not to mention I was hangry pretty much all of the time, in other words, terrible company.

And so I invite you to join me in my monthly series, Notes from the Heart, where I will be giving you a glimpse into my past.

I hope to share with you some of what I’ve learned in this wild ride so far, make you laugh (if I’m lucky) and if nothing else, show you that you’re not alone.

Hear me when I say you’re not doomed, and feeling better about yourself (which leads to healthier eating habits – ta, da!) is entirely possible for you. You’re just going have to trust me on this one (and meet me back here in a month for the second edition).

Until then…

“Treat yourself as if you already are enough. Walk as if you are enough. Eat as if you are enough. See, look, listen as if you are enough. Because it’s true.” ― Geneen Roth

Have a beautiful week and a big thank you for being YOU!

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